I have been "maintaining" another blog for a few years. In light of the recent tragically pathetic turn my life has taken, I didn't want to keep that one. The name of the blog alone was a bad memory. I made this blog last year as an assignment for an English class. On a whim, I checked the availability of my first name. Because it is so weirdly spelled, it was available. While I was trying to figure out what to do with the whole blog situation, the existence of this one came to me. And what could be more perfect than the simplicity of my name?
So new life, new blog.
I will never cease to be amazed at the way life can turn out so differently from what was originally thought. But, this year has really driven that home to me. This year began with high expectations for me. I was really enjoying my life and the direction it was going. I lived a very comfortable life.
This year will end with most things completely different. The truly important things remain the same. I am still a mother to some incredible kids. They have had to take on a heavy thing these past few months. But, we still laugh, we still have fun, and they still are good to each other. My kids are the sole reason I have kept it together. They keep me "normal." As normal as I ever can be.
Also, this change in my life has opened up to me previously unattainable dreams. Very early on, I realized that I was all of a sudden the master of my fate. Being a military wife for the past eleven years has meant that my life has not truly been my own, even down to what I chose to major in. I had to choose something that I could change schools with every two years. The world of possibilities was suddenly opened up to me and I knew I had the chance to do what I wanted to do but gave up.
In January, I will start school at the University of Utah as an English major with a Pre-med focus. I know that I have chosen one of the hardest things to do, but it fills me with excitement and anticipation. It will be a long slog, but I know that I have made the right choice for me. That will be enough to get me through the next few years of stress and uncertainty.
